Like any other 5-year-old child, she has been curious. We’ve talked about her older brother’s inability to control his body.
She knows that the hand that flies into her face/hair when she gets close enough – it’s a reflex unrestrained.
This concept builds, as her thoughts travel down many roads.
We’ve also had short conversations here and there about the heart.
Tonight her tear-filled words gave new angle to old truth.
So, here it is, from the mouth of my babe…
Me: “You really shouldn’t have hurt Kate like that. Several times today you did things to her that were mean. There are consequences for mean things.”M: I didn’t want to do them!! I don’t know why I can’t control my heart!! I really wish I could control my heart!! (tears)Me: I’m sorry M, even when we feel like we aren’t in control, we are still responsible for those times.M: (tears increasing) I don’t know what’s wrong with me, that my heart does that!!! (both hands over heart)
I’m just like Blue* on the inside! (very upset) My heart does things that I don’t want it to do and I can’t control it!!!!
Then my sweet (and not always so sweet) girl and I prayed with precious tears for our dystonic hearts.
For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. – Romans 7:19
“Nothing but the blood…”
Thank you for a sweet, touching life lesson for us all. For me, much good news is found in 1 John 3:19-20 — “By this we shall know that we are of the truth and reassure our heart before him; for whenever our heart condemns us, GOD IS GREATER THAN OUR HEART, and he knows everything.” (ESV)
Oh my, oh my….my heart. Applications are everywhere if we only have eyes to see. Awesome God moment!!
Oh how I understand this!! At this age it’s so confusing, and frustrating. Caleb sometimes wants to be like Zach and other times just can’t understand his uncontrolled arms and says “Zach just hit me!” even though he really knows he didn’t really do it on purpose. I try to remember that God is working in all of this!
What sweet insight she has to see what’s up with her heart. And what a sweet mama to pray with her precious girl for help.
Blessings . . .